Dear Diary

I love writing out my thoughts and getting your perspective, and encouragement. "Dear Diary" is going to be a new addition to the blog, no affiliate links or products, just me and my thoughts.

I'm sure, so many of you can relate to me on this topic! I don't take compliments well, I know the person giving them is genuine, but I don't believe them. I have a tough time valuing myself, and feeling like my skills are good enough. For the past 4 years, I've helped family, friends, and Facebook viewers change up their decor. The second I see a picture, or I am in the space I can see it all come together through paint colours, window treatments, furniture placement, etc.  I love helping people love their homes! I'm confident with my suggestions and referrals, then comes the "how much do I owe you" or "how much would you charge" I freeze and shyly say don't worry about it. For years I've had people request my services for holiday decorating, and I always laugh it off and think why would anyone offer to pay me for that? 


I've had design professionals, stagers, real estate agents, and random people on my street complement my work and suggest I make a business out of decorating, again I freeze, and become embarrassed, just because I have a good eye doesn't mean I'm qualified to take money for my services. So the wheels start turning and I think, I'll enroll in a program, and earn that certificate I so desperately want, so people know I do have value. Then reality sets in... time and money! If I'm working on a certificate, then I won't be working on my blog or Tesser Traditions so I won't be making any money, and that's not an option. Then I start to think, evenings? Why not! Work on Tesser Traditions during the day, pick up the kids from school, make dinner, put the kids to bed, and then do correspondence. Tons of people do it! So can I, right? Well by the time the kids are in bed, and house stuff is taken care of it's, 9 pm and I'm so tired that the thought of looking at a screen makes me weepy. 

I've read 100's of success stories Like Joanna Gaines who earned their validation by doing, and I've decided that trying and failing is much better than never trying at all. I'm upfront with everyone; I don't pretend that I'm professionally trained or that I have all the answers because I don't. BUT if you like my style, and think that we would work well together to turn your house into a home that you are proud of and love, I'm your gal. 

I would love to hear your thoughts on my thoughts! 

Megan, xo